sl5_whispyrA lot has happened in the last couple of months.  My birthday passed a couple weeks ago, and I feel like I am coming out of a chrysalis.  For one thing, the pink is all gone.  My birthday present to myself was a trip to the salon and a return to my natural hair colour.  After 15 years, it was a bit of a shock.  I am still getting used to seeing myself blond again – I haven’t had my hair any shade of blond in over a year and a half (and then it was still half pink).

Everything in my life has a somewhat impermanent feel to it.  After six years in a tiny apartment, I feel like we are only visiting this new place.  We still don’t have a lot of furniture.  Moving and setting up house is expensive, so we are taking it slow to avoid unnecessary debt.  Half of my stuff is still in boxes.  With all of the room, I’m not really sure where to put things.  Before we moved, it was all in the living room, but it doesn’t need to be crammed into one room now.

My dishwasher is my new best friend.  I have been spending a lot more time in the kitchen now that there is room and it is always clean.  I made dark chocolate balsamic truffles yesterday, and today I made apple sauce out of apples that were on the verge of going bad.  I’d forgotten how much I love to cook.

Another surprise on my birthday was an e-card from my father.  A man I haven’t heard from or layed eyes on in over a decade picked this year to get back in touch.  I’m not really sure how I feel about that.  I don’t really have any other parents left in my life, and I while I’m not angry with him anymore, I’m also not sure I forgive him yet.  The scars of my childhood haven’t completely healed – and I think that the self-image he helped to create will be something I will struggle with for the rest of my life.

We all make mistakes in our 20s.  Luckily mine were made without 3 children looking on.  It would be nice if things were better between us, but I am a little worried that we are just too different now.  All that said, I am willing to give it a try.  No expectations.

In other news, it snowed again on Wednesday.  I blame the radio people.  They were complaining that if this were next year and it was as warm as it had been last week, then the Olympics would have to be cancelled.  So what happens two days later?  That’s right, a half foot of snow.

Luckily, it warmed up enough to melt the snow Thursday afternoon, and now it is back to being springtime weather.  But seriously, I have had my fill of winter.

Also, my LJ account has lapsed again.  I’m not really sure if I will renew it this year.  I only go to LJ once a week or so now to catch up a bit on my Flist.  I generally prefer the layout and interface of WordPress.  The only thing that keeps me at LJ at all is the history and my friends page.  I guess we will see what the springtime brings.

–PT